You don't know what you have put me through.

Is there something wrong with me? You hurt me more than twice. Congratulations to you,cause you the first guy that make me cried countless times. You played with my heart like as if it's a toy. I'm like your barbie doll,when you're bored,you find me cause you know,you're my weakness and when you're done playing with me,you put me back to the shelf and walk away just like that. But,stupid as it sounds,I still can't get over you. There's just something about you that I can't let go.

I still hold the memories. I still reminiscing the past. I remembered,each time my training ends,I knew you be in the canteen or playing soccer with your fellow mates while waiting for me and when I'm done,you will send me home. Each time when we went school together,the both of us will be arguing over something and you will played pranks on me early in the morning even though you knew it annoys me. When I got a major headache,you lend me your shoulder and told me to rest and you will remain quiet cause you scared if it will worsened my headache. If I came to you with a broken finger,you will asked if is everthing alright with me and you will try your best to massage my finger. During recess time,you find me and shot me a look that tells me to eat and if I refuse to listen,you gave me a silent treatment. :/ That particular time,I was running down and you told me to meet you and I did and everything felt better afterwards.

Now,you tell me,how can I let go? How can I move on?

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